RIP Shikiss

Shikiss
August 1995 - January 15, 2007
RIP Shikiss, First Dog
(AKA Tri-paw, Shikkie, Shikkis-Bolikkus, Shikka-lickus, Shikkie-Lou-Who, Caninus Trileggus)
Many years ago, when I was young and mostly crazy, and definitely not responsible enough to even take care of myself, much less another creature, I went to the animal control (The Pound) in Gallup, New Mexico, with my friend Christine. Gallup is a small town on the edge of the Navajo Reservation, the nation's largest Indian reservation.
I had this half-baked idea to get myself a dog. I'm not quite sure why I thought this was a good idea -- I'd only recently finished college, and had moved a month before to Gallup, where I was working for the Gallup Independent (motto: The Truth Misspelled). The last thing I needed was a responsibility like that.
But this cute little blonde-and-white Rez Mutt puppy caught my eye. I remember the moment like it was yesterday: She was in the corner cage with her two littermates. I came up to the cage and she leapt at the bars like she was, well, as crazy as I was at the time. My heart melted. "This one," I said. "For sure, this is the one."
I took her home. THe next day at the newspaper, I solicited input from other employees on a name. Evelyn, a really nice Navajo woman who put together obituaries and news briefs, suggested a Navajo word which I translated as "Shikiss" (SHI-kiss), which meant, Evelyn said, "My Friend."
(I am quite sure that I did not pronounce this word correctly, from day one. Navajo is a beautiful language, filled with breathy halts-and-starts, nearly impossible to reproduce if you weren't born into it).
Just the same, despite Christine's insistence on calling my new puppy "Shit-kiss" for several months, I adopted the name.
For the next several years, it is true Shikiss was my friend -- at times my only friend, it seemed. For that first year, especially, Shikiss and I went everywhere together -- she came with me on long drives through red sandstone canyons on the Rez, to late-night school board meetings in Chinle, to wildfires in Chinchilbito, to murder trials in Shiprock. At night, I would write articles, and Shikiss would hang out and keep me company. More than anything , she loved to come with me in the car. She sat in the passenger seat and barked at horses we passed on the roadside. Even when I went to work, she much preferred waiting for me in the car to waiting at home.
The story of how Shikiss lost her leg shall be skimmed over. My friend Don came to pick me up in his big old brown 1972 Ford Pickup Truck, and since the Rez has no fences, Shikiss decided to chase us. She got caught under the wheel. Her left front leg was amputated when she was 9 months old. I remember the vet bill: $300. Something close to half my monthly income at the time.
A lot of water has passed under the bridge since our time together on the Rez. Other dogs have come , and gone (and other cats, and goats, and rabbits). Shikiss over time lost her youthful ability to walk long distances, and in 2001 she started showing signs of having a lot of pain. An X-ray that spring showed her hip joints were already nearly completely worn down, as a result of her lopsided, three-legged gait. The vet told me she would need to be put down soon, perhaps that summer. He insisted she would need pain pills until that day came.
I took her home, and never took her back to a vet. I didn't give pain pills -- I gave glucosamine. Lots of it.
Despite a few good walks and chases, Shikiss spent most of the next six years playing Backup Barker to more agile dogs who liked to chase coyotes -- she would stand on the porch and bark for hours, while the others sprinted across the fields. She loved her role as backup barker, and she loved that her disability gave her Special Privileges. While the other dogs often got banished to chicken protection duty at night, Shikiss came in and slept by the fire. She grew rather Peevish.
Not that she ever gave up: To her dying day, Shikiss liked to chase cars. She liked to chase them because she wanted to be up there, in the passenger seat. In fact, she believed very much that she deserved to be there.
When I knew for certain this morning that Shikiss could not survive until the ground thaws this spring, as we'd been hoping, I was at first worried: How were we going to get this dog, in terrible pain, into a car?
Silly me. Here's how: Open the car door and invite her in.
Although three kids had definitely reduced the number of car trips Shikiss took the last few years, she never lost her love for coming with me in the car.
So I opened the door to our Toyota truck, and she jumped right in. (She whimpered, but she jumped -- it had been months since this dog jumped).
On our way down to the vet, Shikiss barked. She barked at the horses searching through the snow for some grass in the field next to ours. She barked at the German Shepherd down the road who chases every car that passes. She barked at the coyote sauntering across a field near the river.
We stopped for burritos: One for me, and one with extra bacon for her. I tore off pieces and gave them to her, as we drove through the Rio Grande canyon.
For the first time in months, she trusted me enough to lay her head against my shoulder (for the past six months or so, it has hurt her too much to be petted, so she avoided it).
I did not ask the vet for any hope. I announced my intention, and that was that. We were brave, Shikiss and I. We ignored the irritating Pit Bull in the waiting room who wanted nothing more than to play with us. We ignored the yippie little dachsund who tried to lunge at our throats. Shikiss sat, and I sat. Every so often, she looked up at me, as if to ask, "Is it time yet?"
And then the time came and the vet wasted no time. Shikiss went up on the table, onto a white cloth. I held her head as they put the needle into her remaining front leg, I whispered into her ear, and I said, "Thank you, Shikkie, thank you. Thank you for being such a good dog. Such a good dog. Oh thank you, Shikiss."
It was fast and, I think, she was grateful to be done with her pain.
The ground here is frozen under several feet of snow. For now, poor Shikiss is buried in a snowdrift. Come spring, when the ground thaws, we'll make her a nice grave on the farm.
I will miss you, My Friend.



